People often ask me how I knew it was time to get out of my marriage, and the answer is always very simple, my gut told me so.
I woke up most days questioning my decision. I dreamed of a life other than the one I was living. I was obsessed with traveling as a means to escape my own reality. I never wanted to come home. Shopping became my addiction. I felt lost. I felt defeated. I felt hopeless.
By no means was my ex a bad guy, on the contrary, he truly was and still is a good person, we just weren’t right for one another.
Just like any girl, I had a plan. I was almost 30, I was dating my best-friend for two years, and now it was time to get married. Although I knew all along I was making a huge mistake, little did I know what marriage entailed. That’s the part no one tells you about, what happens after the “supposedly” Happily Ever After.
Women are blessed with a sixth sense – our intuition – and many times we (me) fail to listen to that inner voice. The biggest lesson I learned throughout this entire experience was I learned to trust myself, believe in myself, and listen to myself. I learned to make decisions based on what is right for me, rather than giving in to fear and insecurity. I learned that we always have the answers to all our problems, we just need to ask ourselves those tough questions in order to get to them.
Having said that, I’ve also been around enough successful marriages to know that if you are married to the right person, as challenging as life can sometimes be, marriage can be good. The biggest piece of advice I’ve received has been this, “marriage is hard work, but it shouldn’t be that hard.”
Hopefully I haven’t depressed you. At this moment you are either relating to me, or thanking your lucky stars you aren’t in my shoes, and you should. I’m a big believer in limiting the information that’s shared on a public forum to what’s appropriate, but I wanted to share this life experience and hope that it will be of some meaning to someone somewhere in the world.
So let’s lighten things up here and talk about these Avocado Walnut Brownies. I’ve been baking with avocado recently and they add so much moisture to baked goods without the calories and saturated fat. These brownies are rich, fudgy, and delicious, but keep in mind, they will never taste like brownies made with butter.
If you keep your expectations in check, you’ll love these delicious, healthy Avocado Walnut Brownies which will satisfy your chocolate craving. Hope you guys try them out and let me know what you think. Enjoy!
- Organic Coconut Oil - 2 tbsp
- Ghirardelli 60% Dark Chocolate Chips - ½ cup
- Organic Avocado - 1 large
- Organic Eggs - 2
- Organic Maple Syrup - ½ cup
- Pure Vanilla Extract - 2 tsp
- Dagoba Unsweetened Organic Cacao Powder - ¾ cup
- Organic Coconut Flour - ¼ cup
- Salt - a pinch
- Walnuts - ½ cup (chopped)
- Preheat oven to 350 degrees.
- Spray an 8"x8" baking pan with coconut oil spray. Line with foil and spray the foil with coconut oil spray as well.
- In a double boiler on low-medium heat, add coconut oil and dark chocolate chips. Once melted, turn off the stove. Set aside to cool.
- In a food processor, add the avocado, eggs, maple syrup and vanilla. Blend until well-combined.
- Now add the cacao powder, coconut flour, salt and the cooled dark chocolate. Blend.
- At this time you can add the walnuts and pulse a few times in the food processor, OR you can chop up the walnuts and fold it into the batter. I personally prefer folding the walnuts into the batter so the walnuts are more obvious in every bite and not chopped up into tiny pieces.
- Batter is ready.
- Pour brownie batter into the lined foiled pan.
- Spread evenly.
- Into the oven for 30 minutes.
- Cut into 16 squares ( I did 12, but 16 is the right amount ). Enjoy!
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What advice would you give your younger self? Have you made Avocado Brownies or baked with avocado? Thoughts?